24-02-23 No one asks if my porridge is warm, no one stands with me at dusk
After dinner, Xiaogao disappeared again and ignored me
Maybe still working on the composition? Maybe organizing things? Or maybe relatives came over? Or maybe doing homework?......
Given my personality, maybe because I'm a fish? I'm actually someone who will crazily speculate about the other person's thoughts. Overly suspicious, this cannot be changed
In chatting with him, I found that when I chat with others (not parents, but I will try to please them, okay, I admit I am a people-pleaser, tired), in most cases, I will draft what to say, afraid of saying the wrong thing, unable to round off the conversation.
I am like Xiaogao, looking at problems from the other person's perspective. In fact, I am a bit afraid of rejection. My original family is a bit of a failure, they raised a child who can accept everything for the most part, with "whatever" as a mantra. What to eat at night: whatever; where to go: whatever. Nothing particularly liked......
To some extent, I should be very similar to this classmate Xiaogao. I have never had such a friend before, and I am happy about it, but on the other hand, I am also afraid of losing it. Almost the same way of chatting, liking to be carefree, having no favorite things, being suspicious and speculative, unwilling to show weakness, escaping if possible......
I pay a lot of attention to relationships between friends. I am very sensitive to emotions and behaviors. However, she disappeared tonight, for a long time, I want to wait for her, I set an alarm every hour, staring at the screen, with many thoughts but feeling ultimately futile, I think I am probably (losing my mind)
I have tried very seriously to keep her
Never been like this before (first time in my life)
If she ignores me
Always (Forever)
Then let her go, I will feel uncomfortable for a while
From the bottom of my heart
I wish you happiness, my friend
The people we meet in the sea of humanity will eventually have to be returned to the sea.